Aug 19, 2010

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Earworms

ROBERT KRULWICH: This is Radiolab. I'm Robert Krulwich.

JAD ABUMRAD: I'm Jad Abumrad.

ROBERT: This hour, I'm going to curse you, Jad. I'm going to ask you to just simply do this one thing. You know that song that we both hate?

JAD: Which one?

ROBERT: Bum-bum, bad-a, bum-bum, bad-a, bum-bum.

JAD: God, it's like the moment you start that, it doesn't ...

ROBERT: Keep going. Can you sing it?

JAD: [hums]

ROBERT: There are some songs that I can stick into your head and they just won't leave. There's somebody—of course—who got this song somehow stuck in her head, and then his songs that just won't go away because you didn't even invite them and they stay. This is an hour on the music in our heads. Where do the songs come from? Why do they stay? A whole hour without Suzanne Vega ...

JAD: Thankfully.

ROBERT: ... on Radiolab.

JAD: Let me ask you a question to get us started here. When a song gets stuck in your head, do you have one in there right now by any chance?

ROBERT: Oliver. The Broadway show tune.

JAD: Of course. What does it sound like when it's in there?

ROBERT: What does it sound like?

JAD: Yes. Just think before you answer it. What does it really sound like? Describe it musically.

ROBERT: Well, it's funny that you mention this. I don't hear any musicians.

JAD: Is it loud?

ROBERT: No, it's nothing. It's not loud.

JAD: Does it have like a location?

ROBERT: No.

JAD: Timbre?

ROBERT: No, it just has a melody, a vague foggy ...

JAD: Like a shadowy melody.

ROBERT: Yes, exactly.

JAD: Okay, well, that's our starting point, you know. Most of us get a song in our head, it's kind of like what you described, vague. There are people who, when they get songs stuck in their head, it's a whole different experience. It is not vague. In fact, they wish it were vague, they wish it were a shadow. You'll know what I mean in a second. Let me introduce you to someone.

LEO RANGELL: Mary had a little lamb, little lamb, little lamb.

JAD: Always has songs running through his head.

LEO RANGELL: Everywhere that Mary went, the lamb was sure to go.

JAD: He's plagued by them actually, and he spoke with our producer, Lulu Miller.

LULU MILLER: That was going through your head just now?

LEO RANGELL: That's right. [sings] Mary had a little lamb, over and over again.

LULU: Let me have you just introduce yourself really quickly.

LEO RANGELL: My name is Leo Rangell. I'm not young. I just had my 94th birthday. I've been in LA since I was in the war, World War II.

LULU: Leo is a psychoanalyst.

LEO RANGELL: Oh, yes. I'm still in practice.

LULU: So he finds everything that's been going on in his own head intriguing from a professional standpoint.

LEO RANGELL: I'm trying to think, "What the hell am I doing?"

LULU: Anyway, this whole thing started for him about 12 years ago. He just had major heart surgery, and he wakes up in his hospital bed.

LEO RANGELL: I wake up in the ICU, and almost as soon as I'm conscious, outside my hospital window, I hear music, and it was distant. It sounded funereal, like hymns. I hear these songs, I look out the window, I think, "Geez, a rabbi is out there." I say to my kids, I casually say, "Hey, there's a rabbi out there singing." They said, "What do you mean?" I said, "There must be a rabbi school, and he must be teaching young people how to be rabbis," and the kids looked at each other.

LULU: Because they weren't hearing anything. But at that moment, that didn't matter to Leo because the music was so loud and vivid to him, so totally coming through that window that ...

LEO RANGELL: I dismissed them as, "Oh, well, they could have their opinion if they want." I didn't think anything of it. Then the rest of the week in the hospital, I'm getting better and better, and as I get better, the music changes. I stop being perky and the music out the window changes to Chattanooga Choo Choo [mumbles] Chattanooga Choo Choo.

LEO RANGELL: Well, 1:00 in the morning, 2:00 in the morning I'm waking up with these songs.

LULU: Always coming in from right outside that window.

LEO RANGELL: Then I thought, "Jeez, there's a pretty energetic group there across the street."

LULU: At this point, Leo was beginning to suspect that something a little weird was going on.

LEO RANGELL: The real oup de grâce came when I was going to leave the hospital after a week or so, and this tune, I didn't know the words at first, but I started to hear, "Tata-dada, ta-ta, ta-ta, ta-da, ta-ta. Tata-dada, ta-ta ...

LULU: As he packed up, signed out of the hospital, and got into his car ...

LEO RANGELL: I was reflecting.

LULU: That's when it hit him.

LEO RANGELL: I still was hearing the song.

LULU: The song was still coming from outside a window, but now the scenery was moving.

LEO RANGELL: I thought it was related to the hospital and to the thing across the street. Here I am in the car listening to this.

LULU: That's when the lyrics appeared.

LEO RANGELL: Finally, the words come, "When Johnny's goes marching home again, hurrah, hurrah."

LULU: He couldn't ignore it anymore. Not only was the song following him home, it's like the song was about him. He was the Johnny.

LEO RANGELL: The girls would cheer ...

LULU: Marching home, coming home from the hospital.

LEO RANGELL: I realized, "I am listening to me. I am listening to me."

JAD: Okay, is he really though? Is he really listening to anything or does he just think he's hearing something?

ROBERT: Well, there's nothing out there for him to hear.

JAD: From the inside, is his brain actually hearing music? Well, lucky for us, there's a professor in England who had the exact same question. I called him up.

[phone rings]

TIM GRIFFITHS: Hello.

JAD: Hi, can I speak to Professor Griffiths, please?

TIM GRIFFITHS: Speaking.

JAD: Tim Griffiths is his name. He is a professor of cognitive neurology at Newcastle University. Here's what he did. He took 35 people who are like Leo, who claim to be hallucinating music, and he scanned their brains.

TIM GRIFFITHS: Very simple experiment. I just put people in a scanner and said, "What are you hearing now? What are you hearing now?"

JAD: When they told him, "There I'm hearing music," at that moment, he would snap a picture of their brain.

TIM GRIFFITHS: But ...

JAD: Then he took a different group of people who have no hallucinations. Played them real music.

TIM GRIFFITHS: Actual music.

JAD: Scanned their brains, then he compared the pictures.

TIM GRIFFITHS: If you look ...

JAD: They look virtually identical.

TIM GRIFFITHS: If you'd have put those in front of me and say one's people hallucinating, the other people being played music, I wouldn't be able to tell you which was which.

JAD: Which tells you two things. First, this condition is real. These people are not making it up. Second, this goes way beyond the ordinary experience that the rest of us have where we get a song stuck in our heads. These people are getting the full hi-fi experience of listening to music. Their entire brain is lit up.

DIANA DEUTSCH: The music sounds so convincingly like real-life music. What are to you think when it suddenly appears?

JAD: That's Diana Deutsch, a psychologist at the University of California, San Diego, who's been collecting emails from hundreds of different people who hallucinate music.

DIANA DEUTSCH: One person described it in the following way. He said, "Imagine that you were at a rock concert standing right by the loudspeaker. Well, it's louder than that."

LEO RANGELL: At the beginning when I didn't know what was going to happen, I thought it was gonna take over my mind. It started interfering with sleep. It's [sings] On the Atchison, Topeka and the Santa Fe like all night. I got mad. I used to say, "Stop it already. Stop it. Cut it out. Come on. Enough. Enough. Enough." But you're never free. I thought I'd never sleep again. That was the low point. I thought, "I've got to get help for this."

LULU: At what point did you bring it up with doctors?

LEO RANGELL: The doctors were completely impotent. To this day, they roll their eyes when I tell them about it.

LULU: One doctor told him that maybe it was the fillings in his teeth picking up the radio.

LEO RANGELL: Okay, I hoped it was, but it wasn't. It continued forever.

LULU: Nothing he could do could make it stop.

LEO RANGELL: I don't have an off button.

LULU: It's like there was a jukebox in his head run by an evil gremlin. The worst part, the gremlin would mess with the tempo.

LEO RANGELL: Okay, ta-da-da-da, ta-ta-da-da, ta-ta-da-da-da-da, da-da-da-da, da-da-da-da, the man on the flying trapeze. Then it starts speeding up. [sings] Da-da-da, da-da-da, da-da-da, da-da-ta, ta-da-da-da. That's the worst. When that started to happen, I really was getting close to panicking. I had the feeling that it could go at its rate, and I couldn't stop it. It's like you're on a galloping horse and the horse is running away with you. I once told that to my daughter. She said, "Dad, why don't you just instead think of the song, Silent Night." [music in, "Silent Night"] I could control the tempo, and instead, when that was galloping, I would go, Ta-da-da-ta, ta-da-da-ta. Immediately, I'm completely relaxed, and the gallop is completely gone. I can even let it come back, and it would start now being [sings slowly] ta-ta-da-da-da-da-da-da. That was no longer ever a problem of the tempo running away with me.

JAD: Okay, so let's just assume Leo is not crazy.

LEO RANGELL: I never thought I was psychotic. Never. Never.

JAD: Because most people that turn out with this condition are not crazy.

DIANA DEUTSCH: There's nothing else wrong with him.

JAD: According to Diana Deutsch. Then the question becomes, "How can a person who is otherwise sane hallucinate to such a crazy degree?" Well, in the '60s, there was a Polish psychologist named Jerzy Konorski who thought about this and he came up with a simple beautiful idea, based on an assumption that he couldn't prove yet, which was, that between the ears and the brain, there are some connections, he thought, just a few stray connections that run backwards. Brain back to ear, which would allow sound to run in reverse. Now, this was just an idea. He couldn't really test it. Many years later, neuroscientists like Tim Griffiths start to poke around in the brain. They start to explore and what they find is that he was right. Very right.

TIM GRIFFITHS: Yes, we look at the pathway between the ears, and the brain, probably about 70 percent of the fibers don't actually go up, they go down, they go the other way towards the ears.

ROBERT: Seventy percent go up?

JAD: Seventy percent go from the brain to the ears. It's like our ears are literally wired to hear our brains. Now Konorski's idea was that normally our ears wouldn't hear what the brain was saying because it was too busy taking in all the sounds from the outside. "What if," he thought, "The sound from the outside stopped?" Maybe then there would be a kind of backflow. The sound stored in your brain would start to flow backwards. Now, again, this is just an idea but there might be something to this because it would explain why most of the people who suffer from musical hallucinations, according to Tim Griffiths, have one thing in common.

TIM GRIFFITHS: By far and away the common situation you see is in people who have deafness, usually in middle or later life.

JAD: You don't have to take his word for it.

MICHAEL CHOROST: Nearly the instant that I went deaf, I started experiencing round-the-clock, 24/7, auditory hallucinations.

JAD: This is Michael Chorost when he was 36, he lost all of his hearing. He remembers the moment it happened. He was in the emergency room talking to a nurse and suddenly the sound started to go.

MICHAEL CHOROST: It was like going from talking like this, to talk like this, to talk like this, to talk like this. My ears were just draining out, like water draining out of a bathtub. I was just getting deafer, deafer, and deafer. At the same time, I was starting to hear a very loud ringing sound in my ears. It was gradually morphing into formless eerie, ethereal music. Music of the spheres really, I will call it. It would slowly morph into some version of the Ave Maria. [music in, "Ava Maria"] It was almost as if, as a sort of recompense to being deaf, I was like plugged into some deep background melody in the cosmos.

JAD: Now here's the question: what would happen if Michael suddenly got his hearing back? Well, a couple of months later, Michael got a cochlear implant installed. This is a little chip that's put into his brain which promised to return at least part of his hearing. He says when the doctors turned it on ...

MICHAEL CHOROST: The moment ...

JAD: ... the moment he says they turned it on, the sounds from the world came rushing in and the music stopped.

MICHAEL CHOROST: Stopped cold. Just went away almost instantaneously.

JAD: There you go.

ROBERT: Well, but I happen to know a woman who had a very, very different experience.

JAD: What do you mean?

ROBERT: She had the same problem, she went deaf, she started hearing music. What kind of music was it?

CHERYL C: Hymns, spirituals, patriotic songs.

ROBERT: Her name, it's not actually her real name. It's Cheryl C, is what we're going to call her. She wanted the music in her head to stop and she'd heard about a patient like your friend here.

CHERYL C: Who heard musical hallucinations received a cochlear implant and hallucinations disappear. So I wanted to do it.

ROBERT: She did it. She got the implant. She wakes up on the operating table and ...

CHERYL C: I heard the music. It was inside me.

ROBERT: Still there.

CHERYL C: Just was there. I can't stop it.

JAD: They are kinda the same situation.

ROBERT: They are very much the same.

JAD: Why would there be that difference?

ROBERT: I don't know why there is this difference between those, so I asked Dr. Oliver Sacks we often talk to on these questions. How do you explain the difference?

OLIVER SACKS: As a physician one sees patients, you ask about their symptoms, they produce their symptoms, but it is equally important to see the relation of the symptoms of the disease, to the person themselves, to their identity.

ROBERT: He's discovered over the years that the problem is expressed in the patient is partly a disease. The person is sick or in trouble in some way. At the same time, the disease is reflecting something about the person in front of him.

OLIVER SACKS: One sees interaction and a liaison, a collusion, a condition, I don't know what word to use, between the self and a symptom.

ROBERT: Sometimes it can come out so strangely. For example, there is a patient he has, who is a Jewish kid.

OLIVER SACKS: He was a Jewish boy who'd grown up in Hamburg in 1920s and 1930s and he had been terrified by the Nazi youth.

ROBERT: For some horrible reason.

OLIVER SACKS: He hallucinated Nazi marching songs. He was tormented.

ROBERT: On the other hand, Oliver told me about an old woman he once met in a nursing home who was haunted by lullabies.

OLIVER SACKS: One after the other, nonstop.

ROBERT: She was an orphan.

OLIVER SACKS: Her father died before she was born and her mother before she was five. Orphaned, alone.

ROBERT: She found the songs in her head deeply comforting.

OLIVER SACKS: The music and the hallucinations, in fact, seemed to be a door into a lost part of childhood.

ROBERT: Then the differences between people, when music floods into their head, what's going on, says Oliver, is the disease and the person, they are talking to each other.

OLIVER SACKS: The self can be molded by hallucination, but it can mold them in turn.

JAD: I wonder where Leo fits into this. Lulu?

LULU: Yes.

JAD: How would you say that Leo self interacts with his symptoms or vice versa?

LULU: Well, he's a psychoanalyst, so whenever he gets songs stuck in his head, which is like all the time, he analyzes it. He looks for a hidden meaning in it.

LEO RANGELL: You know the way dreams reveal your inner life, the same thing with songs.

LULU: Leo will tell you that every song is a message from his subconscious.

LEO RANGELL: Everything has an unconscious connection, pleasant or unpleasant.

LULU: He's just got to figure out what it is.

LEO RANGELL: [laughs] I'm analyzing me like I have a patient in front of me.

LULU: When I first called him up, he had "Mary Had a Little Lamb," stuck in his head. That he told me it was because he'd been thinking about ...

LEO RANGELL: The passivity of the American people in following a leader that misleads them. "And everywhere that Mary went, the lambs sure to go." I mean, the connection is obvious.

LULU: Or when he first got home from the hospital, he always had "America the Beautiful" stuck in his head.

LEO RANGELL: I'm certainly not a raving patriot, but what this meant was home sweet home. America to me was home.

LULU: It's easy to think that this is kind of a stretch. Every song has some very specific meaning for him, but I don't know. There was this one time he told me about where he woke up with a song in his head.

LEO RANGELL: I stopped going to brush my teeth. I'm singing along as I go to the bathroom.

LULU: He didn't know why.

LEO RANGELL: This is what it was.

LULU: Just a few years after his wife had died.

LEO RANGELL: [sings] My Bonnie lies over the ocean. My Bonnie lies over the sea. My Bonnie lies over the ocean. ta-da-da, da-da, da-da-da-da. Bring back, bring back, bring back my Bonnie to me, to me. I realized when I said, "Why am I singing that song?" Then suddenly I realized it was our wedding anniversary that week. It was one of our major anniversaries. That song can kill me when I hear it.

LULU: Even so he told me that when that song comes, he doesn't want it to go.

LEO RANGELL: I found that when the song disappeared, I didn't want it to disappear.

LULU: It's now been over a decade of hallucinating music for Leo, and he found that, at some point, the music switched and went from intruder to friend.

LEO RANGELL: ta-da-ta, ta-da.

LULU: Now he looks forward to the songs.

LEO RANGELL: Stars and steel guitars, da-da, da-da.

LULU: They keep him company because often he finds himself alone.

LEO RANGELL: [singing] Da-da-da, in Monterey. It's true. One of the things about being 94 is that when you look at your telephone address book, half of them are not there anymore. You scratch out the name and that's not easy. [singing] Da-da-da, just Molly and me and baby makes three. Well happy in my blue heaven.

JAD: Radiolab's Lulu Miller. Thanks, Lulu.

LULU: Yes. Thanks to Leo.

JAD: Leo has a book out about living with musical hallucinations. It's called Music in the Head: Living at the Brain-Mind Border, and so does Michael Chorost. He's the guy with the cochlear implant. His book is called Rebuilt: My Journey Back to the Hearing World. You can find links to all of those on our website, Radiolab.org.

ROBERT: Special thanks to Oliver Sacks, who basically gave us his Rolodex. We were able to find all these people and interview them all. Thanks to Oliver and Kate Edgar, his assistant.

JAD: Absolutely. Now Robert, before we go to break, I just want to play one more clip if you don't mind. Couldn't figure out a place to put it. It's from my interview with Diana Deutsch. I was asking her about musical hallucinations and where this stuff comes from. Where does the music come from? What triggers it? She told me basically, well, it can be anything.

DIANA DEUTSCH: A striking example was somebody who wanted very much for her hallucinations to go, and suddenly they did go away. So she said, "Oh great. This is the sound of silence," and immediately the song, "The Sound of Silence."

[ARCHIVE CLIP: The Sound of Silence]

DIANA DEUTSCH: Simon and Garfunkel's song started.

JAD: What a torture!

JAD: Radiolab will continue in a moment.

[LEO RANGELL: Radiolab is funded in part by the Alfred P. Sloan Foundation, the Corporation for Public Broadcasting, and the National Science Foundation.]

[DIANA DEUTSCH: Radiolab is produced by WNYC, New York Public Radio, and distributed NPR, National Public Radio.]

 

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